isnt that what it is..
shouldnt it be, you don't realize you deserve better until you stand up and leave?
if not, thats what i think it should be.
my life has become a hot mess of everything. and the only thing making it better is hot chocolate and good talks at the coffee shop. i didnt realize how amazing my friends were until i had to deal with a pile of shit landing on me and them helping me through it.
After a year, wouldnt you think you knew someone? knew someone enough to see how they truely are..
i think i saw it, but was afaid to believe it. But the last straw happened, and i needed to change it. to make myself happy and healthy again. because i surely know i am not who i should be at this point in time.
i am in college, living alone, having great friends, but i cry before bed every night? i feel so lost and alone and miserable. that is just terribly wrong for someone like myself.
i am someone who is happy, someone who loves to be around people, to explore the city around them.
but right now, i just havent found that.
and i think since i lost the love of my life, maybe i will realize moping and being upset isnt worth my time.. my life.
i need to live for myself and be happy with myself.
before i can be with someone.
and if they don't plan on waiting, and if they plan on moving on to someone else.
they really are not worth my tears anymore.
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