don't make me change my mind

why?
why does everything bad have to happen to me, and why can't i just live a simple happy life.
that would be a nice thing..

im tired of losing things,
and never gaining things.

im tired of losing people,
and them not coming back.

im tired of knowing my world is changing,
when im not ready for it to change.

huge world, and all im thinking about is you

here is the thing.

i am so happy when i am at school. i couldnt be more happy and people can see that.

but once im out of school i get mad and i just want to be alone all the time. i dont want to deal with peoples bullshit, and i dont want to see anyone.

i didn't realize how much i like time alone but its the only thing i want now a days.

little emo rant:

i feel like i have no one anymore. before i always had my go to people, but by moving here it feels like i have lost every single one of them.

i dont know how to change that.

im just ready to go home to liverpool and crawl into my old bed and never get out.

bleeeeeeh.

freedom

in my school, loving my life.
in my school, becoming what i want to become.
in the city, without internet until thursday.
so i will update then.
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can not wait for this course to hit the road.