in the end,
when you try and trust people it will always bite you in the ass on the way back. I think no one can trust anyone other then themselves. And half these people in this world can't even trust themselves.
there is way to much fucked up shit happening in this world nowadays.
including in liverpool, and i will be so happy when i can finally break free and live this place.

When someone declares you their friend, that in itself means love, trust and all this shit. but at the end of the day, the friend will do whatever they have to do to be happy, and not care about any "friends"

i just don't understand.
and i think in a way i am like that, i think in a way every body is like that.
but i do also realize i put my friends before myself everyday,
i never sleep at home because im always in company with my friends,
im there for them all times of the day/night.
i make decisions based on my friends, and not my own choice.
i try to be the most selfless person there could possibly be.

and i know it may be good, but holy hell i am tired.
i am phyically tired of doing this all, and getting what in return?
drama, and more drama and all this fucking bullshit this town brings to my life.

i just wish to be invisible until i can leave and start fresh, and start new.
i am so tired of being drained and mentally tired. its terrible.


thats all, work time.
fake smiles :)