the old magk

sometimes i feel like the life i live, isn't the one i was suppose to live. i feel like i was meant to be so much more then i am. as of right now, i have a political science test tomorrow and i have no started to study for it yet. see the thing is, i know i need to and i realize it. i just don't give a shit about it.
but when i get it back, and i do bad on it i know i will care then.

sometimes i just don't understand anything, and sometimes i just feel the need to break down and cry about everything. as stupid as that seems.

i miss feeling important, i miss being someones everything, i miss having a boyfriend and being a girlfriend. i miss knowing that person is yours and no one elses. and sometimes i regret things a lot of things. like what i did to ruin all the things i miss.

it seems like i have been messing up a lot of things lately and that just isn't who i am. i dont normally do that, and i hate it. i hate what i have become. i want the old molly back before i start to hate myself even more.

help?