no matter how many fuck up's someone can have in their life, they will never know the extent of a regret. No one ever will realize what a regret is. Because is someone actually regretted something, they shouldn't have done it in the first place, since it was/would have been a bad idea.
no matter what people say, no one will know the extent of a human life. no one will realize that in the end you die, and everyone with time will forget you even existed. Now thats a scary thing if you ask me.

what i don't fully understand with "life" is what is the point in trying to make a mark in the world, if youre just going to die in the end. Why would you want to be famous after you die for something you did. When in the end, you won't be able to see the change you made if youre gone.
i just can't get it through my mind that in years to come, i am going to die, and nothing i have done will be affecting peoples lives.

i will be gone, and my memories will soon wash away, and the people around me will move on with their lives forgetting mine.

mindboggling.
something i am not ready for just yet.