what do you do when the love of your life cheats on you.. and you find out..

live to the fullest, and don't look back

i watched an amazing movie tonight. Its called "one week"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eqD9Dm_DMN8

There is the link, everyone one of you reading this HAS to watch it. It's canadian plus it is an amazing story behind it.
What would you do if you only had one week to live? would you continue to go through what you are going through.. or would you stand tall and live so you will be remembered.

This movie made me think a lot. First of all, it made me think that there is no point in me being upset and not happy. I can change that, why sit and think bad of myself. When there is a whole world out there. If that makes any sense?

I want to do so much before i die.. (if i die, i think im immortal) and if I want to do these things then i best get off my ass and start doing them.

First off, i plan to see and meet lights. and hell yes. this is already being completed!
I get to see her live on jan 20th and i have a 99% chance of meeting her. Cross your fingers for me that i will.

Second off, i want to help the world be a better place. I want to show people that there is more to the world than the one they are living in. There are so many reasons to smile out there, yet so many people are sad and heart broken. They need my help.

Third, I want to travel across the world. See the places I never thought I would be able to. Capture every second on camera, and be smiling the whole time. See the family i have never met. But heard so much about.

Last, I want to be remembered. Wait, scratch that... i WILL be remembered.

So everyone, cheer the fuck up. Get off your ass, and smile. You only live once.
And for every 60 seconds you frown, you have lost a minute of happiness.

Cheers <3

hiding

what happens when all you want is to be happy.. to see the people you care about happy and you yourself happy. but that doesnt happen?

what happens when you are so close to a mental breakdown all you want to do is lay in bed and hid under your blankets for a better day. When you want to see noone, not even your friends your closest to..

What happens when being let down is a normal thing in your life..

How is this right? how can someone want so much in life, and get to little back.
i understand i need to try harder and not get let down.. but why is it so hard for me?

why can't i just have an easy life for once. With people in my life that don't leave whenever they feel like it. when they can just talk me down and be okay with it.

Why do i have to seem mentally fucked up? when all i want to do is be happy...

i love you

you know when you find that one person?
when you know you have a hate love relationship
but the love overpowers the struggles?

yah i found him :)

wakeupamoment

everyone following me,

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Id-like-to-wake-up-a-moment-from-your-smile/123784357738946

like this page, read about it, and tell me your story <3

This is going to be big.

i give up on people..

trust yourself and sometimes dont even do that

thoughts?

someday.... i am going to change the world.

when all the music dies.

my mind is so full of thoughts.
thoughts that can't won't leave..

bleh.

magic happens

my life in dartmouth has been the best experience i have had in my life. The people I have met here will always be with me. they share the same interests as me, and they make me smile like noone else has before.

This program is for me. and i am for this program.
I have never been so happy and at peace with my life as i am here.
Sitting in the school till midnight some nights should bother me, but it doesnt.
It makes me smile.
i have this feeling inside my stomach, of pure butterflies because i am so happy here it's unreal.
I dont think i could say it enough, i dont think i could ever explain how great this course is until you try it yourself.

I could sit here and type about all i have experienced and all the hands on work i have had in the industry. i could talk about becoming "the face of NSCC scholarship foundation" or how i met the president of The Chronicle Herald and how he said i could have the job whenever i wanted.

I could sit here and talk to you about how for the first time in 5 years i live 10 minutes from my mom and how great it is to have her in my life. Or how amazing it feels to have my brother back in my life.

I could sit here and type to you every single person i am friends with and how they are just constantly making me happy, making me smile, and making me realize i am in the right place.

I could do this all,
but im just going to leave it up to you to realize and understand the place i am in right now.
It's the best place i will ever be in.

marry me.

i love him,
ive loved him since day one. since we had our first date watching toy story.
I remember everything that has happened, i remember us watching the movie and just slowly started to hold hands.
And at that moment in time, i knew that is what i wanted for the rest of my time.

Thinking about him, and what we've gone through makes me just smile. And a beautiful smile at that.

We may be a lot different, but we make eachother who we are together.

And i can't wait for the future to unfold

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghZt2cILcCU&ob=av2e
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